Ramblin Christian Gypsy
Literary whimsy. Dedicated poetic observer.
Literary whimsy. Dedicated poetic observer.
At Starbucks today a group of German tourists turned into extreme Desperate Housewives fans the second my daughter and I walked through the door. They screamed, jumped up, fell over, got up, then fanned their flushed faces and with shaking hands wanted to take pictures. It was pretty intense.
I chatted for a bit with the one who had a command of the English language but disallowed them taking pictures of Scarlett. Why I dunno when anyone with a camera at the Grove takes her picture all the time. I guess it just seemed the thing to do. If you can’t control it you can’t control it. But if someone asks, “no” seems a good answer when it applies.
When walking back to the car Scarlett smoothed my back with her one hand goes, in a high sing-song “there, there” voice, “See Mommy some people really like you.”
I could have sagged under such condescending counsel. But I decided to rather think on what she got right. And ruminate on how to fix my life with that information.
If German tourists and then perhaps my dogs, could produce a show, then Gentle Reader, we’d be on to something. Because those people really like me.
We’ll call the show, “ACTRESS KILLED. DOZENS MOURN!”
Scarlett’s making her Christmas list. Yes I know it’s August. And I brought this, plus the following to her attention, “Sweetheart let Daddy get off the plane for a day or two before you bombard him with a gift list for Christmas.”
She shot me a sour look and goes, “This has nothing to do with Daddy it’s for Santa.” Then she made her eyes real big and went back to her work like she could scarcely believe my naiviete and the lengths her patience had to go to deal with the likes of me.
Then I rolled my own eyes and walked the other way. We are dueling schools learned at the acting feet of Alyssa Milano, circa Who’s The Boss years.
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures.
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul.
He leadeth me in the path of righteousness for his name sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil.
For thou art with me.
Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table for me in the presence of my enemies.
Thou anointest my head with oil.
My cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy will follow me
all the days of my life.
And I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Little known fact about me is that I naturally sport an Irish orphan’s fro. It’s like cobwebs of wool on my head. And while a lot of the tendrils curl, most of them kink. They have minds of their angry own and seldom listen to reason without the intervention of extreme heat or chemicals.
So back in the day, I had this hair and my sister had that Farrah Fawcett blonde “do” so desirable in the 70’s and 80’s. This was when the world wasn’t so technically savvy about hair and the only blow dryers available to the public were of wimpy wattage and came with a Barbie like toy comb attached at the end.
My Norwegian Mother with similar beautiful, flaxen hair like Heidi’s, had no idea how to coif her younger daughter’s head. When she’d try to get it under control and take a brush to it the results were humiliating and disastrous.
The hair would literally raise from my shoulders like a golum of cotton candy under a witch’s spell. I still remember the look on my Mom’s face. She tried to cover her reaction, God bless her, by reaching for a quick rubber band to tie it off and then she’d add a festive ribbon in there for good cheery measure. I guess hoping against hope to direct people’s attention first to the ribbon and then to the tragic hair of her child.
I knew my hair totally sucked and so did my sister. And while for the most part I knew she loved me and we shared hours of play together and hand holding camaraderie, she would weaponize this knowledge at her strategic convenience. It was a kind of evil that older siblings everywhere employ, I’ve come to realize.
Whenever she needed to break my spirit quickly she went for the hair. In her defense I was an incorrigible little sister full of sass and have forgotten the exact ridiculous behavior that caused her to bring down the wrath of “Yeah…well everybody thinks your hair is weird!” And with that, my world would start spinning and I was bested. Because it was true. I’d run to my room to sob my eyes out and plan my revenge on the world of straight haired people.
I remember once announcing that my head hurt. My Dad goes, “Your hair looks like your head hurts.” And we all laughed because funny is funny. And that was funny.
Cut to today when those silly hair woes are like a story about somebody else that I know really well.
Options that are chemical, options that are all technique, and others still that are magic pieces that clip, or are sewn in to hide the truth. And while I’ll accept their gift of illusion I don’t claim to buy into their promise. That of long silky hair that is sexy. Because if your man can’t grab handfuls of your hair to draw you closer to him because it’ll pull your extensions out, well that’s like a picture of a meal you can never eat. And what good is that? It’s not sexy. I’ve decided. It’s just illusion. Very disparate situations.
Kirk says I look like an entirely different person when I wear my muppet hair. It’s also Elizabethan hair. Or consumptive nineteenth century poetess’ hair. Let’s call it “character hair” and be done with it.
I know where it is and I can always get it when I need it. When it suits my purpose. An off and off binary switch. For the one girl who’s very, very good. And for the other one who’s horrid. But as for who’s my favorite? They’re twins of mine that I love equally, as a Mother should.
I had one car door open and on my belly, cleaning yech from the floorboard mats. I was scrubbing a fair bit when I heard a man yell/hiss/snarl at someone with such contempt I thought it could only be another guy who was the focus of such vile contempt.
"I SAID COME ON ALREADY…. YOU’RE SO F_______ SLOW!!!"
It was so much of an unglued fury that I had to see what was up. Mainly because I was head down and felt kind of vulnerable to be rear end up if a street war erupted and all.
But there was no other person besides the one yelling man who was red faced and nearly frothing.
He startled when I presented myself. I thought he was pretty well dressed and clear eyed to be so afflicted that he fought with parked cars.
And then my heart broke.
Hidden by my car but showing herself now, a toddling little thing with fountain like pony tails unsteadily put one cautious foot in front of the other so as to carefully and quickly reach her angry Father. She had to mind herself or she would fall. She was that young. Walking was that new.
I’m good at faces. Was trained in Japanese commercials, you know. I put my palms skyward and wrinkled my forehead shaking my head. It was the perfect, “I don’t get you at all except for the fact that you disgust me. ” Was what I said while saying not one word. The man dropped his head and walked the other way.
The last I saw of Baby Girl she was negotiating chubby legs in pampers trying to hurry on her little way. She kept saying, “K Da-dy..K Da-dy.”
Futility is the worst feeling in the world. And for all the love I purport to have in my heart, I was shocked at how perfect, inky black, and cold, my hatred was for a man I didn’t even know.
And I was so good at it that it frightened me.
I am an actor. Not a model. I am not uppity or the slightest bit vain with my artistic appearance. However, if I am to look like Satan’s’ ass crack on one episode of television you should know that I expect an offer and will not jump through hoops to get that role.
The only proviso of course is unless there’s an Emmy in the offing. Then see how high and through how many hoops I’m willing to jump.
The way it is. The way I see it.
Far be it from me to clean up the troubled rep of actresses. I am just one person here.
In the Bible, Elisha prayed over a widow who’d fallen on desperate times and the “Miracle of the Never Ending Oil” happened.
Here today, a certain short on funds actress, who could no longer afford Latisse, was forced to stop using it but after much prayer on her own pleading part, her eyelashes stayed as flashy and cow-calf-long as they had for all those once upon a time months long ago when she was still on the juice.
This is never the case as many can testify. For normally, the moment you stop using it, your eyelashes return to their unimpressive anemic form. And so much so that you need some magic makeup artist who answers to a cool name like “Legend” to apply layers of individual lashes because your eyes would be otherwise bald. And sad.
So you see, Gentle Reader, this is very much a modern miracle.
Which to me, only reinforces my belief that God has a forever love for the shallow woman, and finds it within his grace to show us mercy. Even if he quite possibly rolls his own eyes in our direction afterward.
And should I ever be up for sainthood, when the tribunal is convening, and the first criteria of, “Has there ever been a miracle performed in her presence?” Let this post stand and be presented as claim and voucher.
I pretended to be a journalist for our school’s newspaper so I could land an interview with Wrestling Hawaii superstar, Rick Martel. I wasn’t of course, but my school so admired my pluck that they let me out of school and my Dad even drove me to the KGMB television station where it all took place.
I had called the producer of the show and begged for like a month. I think in the end he was so amused by a girl child’s interest in professional wrestling that he relented and going against all protocol, made it happen.
I still recall the befuddled look on my Dad’s face. Bless him for driving me and my cohorts.And not laughing overly at my insistence to watching the comically staged brutal beatdowns every Sunday night. What a freaky child he must have thought he had.
One evening I got Cathy Ratcliff, our school’s best girl athlete, interested in going to Hickam Air Force base where there was a match with Ric Martel and someone I’ve forgotten. I watched him from a distance and sighed as he walked towards the locker room. To be in the proximity of him was enough for me.
He stopped to talk to a tarted up, pretty girl in her twenties. In truth she was just in jeans and a cool shirt but to this little elementary aged Baptist who couldn’t even wear pants, this lucky local girl was living the dream.
It was obvious that she didn’t know Rick but that he wanted to know her. And I had to watch my dream unfold yet be handed to someone else. He chatted her up waiting for his match and they exchanged numbers. Amazing what you can decipher through body language. All this was not lost on the spectators around me and they clucked away in pidgin English that could’ve easily sounded like the language from a faraway place if you weren’t trained in the vernacular.
“Ho, she no shame, yeah!” “He tink so she da-kine all dat, yah?” “Go haole boy, go get ‘em Brah.”
My own little haole cheeks burned with a crimson flush. And after dragging Cathy Ratcliff all the way down there I convinced her we needed to go home. And I turned away from professional wrestling forever, throwing my program in the big trash with a lid that said “mahalo” and made my way home. Silent in the passenger seat the whole way.
Here he is, Rick Martel. In all his swarthy glory.
From here I became utterly infatuated with Erik Estrada. One of the only times in my life I’ve ever seen my Mother roll her eyes was when she saw the heart shaped cake I made to celebrate the Chips star’s birthday. There were red hots to spell out “Eric.”
I also pretended I was going out with him when I wore a black velveteen dress I had that I accessorized with a mirrored pin shaped like a leaping fox. I felt foxy. And my sister always wore a red t shirt that said “super.” And we spent an inordinate amount of time down at the pool flirting with Ruben Chapins who was hired to be down there to keep an eye on things. I would strategically wear my imaginary date outfit down to the pool when Ruben was there and enlist his help to look for my keys that were never lost.
I saw First blood at the Marina Theatres in Honolulu. Believe it was there that I was told I must move to Los Angeles and get me some of that.
And so I did. It could be argued that I have “a type.”
Ahhhh the Bunheads love <3
We ate our way through the Grove and when there was no more food or candy to be had….we left. Lovely.